2020

....10 november
daylight.....i  get off the plane ...i  make few  steps..look  back..the red line is  in front  of me...if  i  pass  i can't go back...i take a   big  breath and...cross........i  leave all behind....all that i  had is  beyond the   big  window...now  i  start  from  nothing....i  walk to ... nowhere,,,,i  stop  every 5 min  and  take  a look  back ...look  arrownd...no one is  waiting  for me...i  start  walk again...walking....walking....it's been  weeks  sinece i walk..months...i don't even remember...i rememeber  i fall one time..i was  walking  walking and i  felt so tired ...my  eys   were  closeing...i  stoped  looked  up and...fall...i  closed my  eyes  and  hoped  thet  when i  will open  i  could  go back in  time  and  start  over,,after 5  min..5  h  ..5  day  i  don't actualy know  how much  time  passed  i open my  eyes..he  was  next  to me...and  said..don't worry  we all fall sometimes...if  we don't  fall we  don't make  progress..he take my hand and i  get  up  ...i  don't  fell  any pain now..i  could  walk  without  any  presure on my  sholders..he  stay  next to me...i  walk he  walks...i turn  he turns..i am lost ..but he is  showing me a  road on a hill...he  is   realllly  quite..i  don't say anything  ,thinking that  he  will go...we  get  to that road..a really nice tree is  near  us...he  start  talking...: "from  here  you  have  to   go  alone..i can't come  more farr..."i  ask  him  why...he is  not  answering..i  ask  him if  i  will  need   help  what  i will do,,,he  says  that  he  will watch  over me  and   that  he is not the only one...and  i  should  look   forward...and  don't look back..i make  few  steps  and...he  dissapear...i hope i will see him again :)

since  then i  didn't fall...but  i  wonder   what  i will  do next time  when i  will fall?